One year ago we found out about you.
Someone in a breastfeeding facebook group posted about pregnancy tests, so I decided to take one, too – even though it was early. It was positive.
A year ago on Thanksgiving we found out we wouldn’t be having an early August baby. I think we had a month or two before Thanksgiving that told us not June or July either. We were now looking at due dates that were into my Mom’s school year starting! How would we manage! Nobody said anything at Thanksgiving, the time when we announced at least one of our other pregnancies. I plugged in numbers into due date calculators over and over again, imagining what having a baby around then would be like.
One year ago you had already been alive for 2 weeks, and soon you would have a heartbeat and share my bloodstream.
Last Christmas was too early to tell anyone and nobody asked us! It was a miracle. I’m not a good liar. But by this point people have figured out our 2 year “plan” (in quotes because only God is in charge) and must be wondering.
The big 3 boys all used the same infant carseat but it was about to expire. This past January I found a carseat, base, stroller, and stander ride-on for the stroller on clearance for less than our original carseat alone cost! While we were checking out I spilled to the cashier, and Leland overheard me, thus ruining any cute reveal to the big 3 boys. We urge him to keep quiet, but a few days later we need a place to store our new supplies so we tell my parents by bringing them to their house.
A year and a half ago I started taking extra folate in hopes of preventing lip and tongue tie in hypothetical future babies. I began to learn about MTHFR gene defect and the problem with folic acid. Even now I have not been tested so I don’t know if I have it but based on many things I’m going on the assumption that I do. You still had a lip and tongue tie anyway.
A year ago your little spine was formed and did not close all the way. You were already you and already loved and already had spina bifida.
And soon our crazy year of 2018 would start, and you would be born well before your Grandma’s school year.